Letting It All Go

For the last 5 months, I have tried my damnedest not to let the cynical voice in my head rule and instead let myself walk through doors that cracked open for me. Oh I knew full well at the time that practicalities, people's natural habits, and my fucked up luck left little hope for anything to truly catch hold and grow. (BTW...I'm not at all claiming I was perfect, but I always kept trying.)

*sigh* I've spent the last month fighting to keep things moving. I was tired, frustrated, and pissed. I've tried. But if no one else on the teams feels inclined to make shit work, there's not much I can really do. So I'm done sweating this shit. I give up. I'm letting it all go.

I tried. Nothing paid off. No regrets though. I learned some lessons and pounded a few basic beliefs back into my core. It is what it is. Nothing more. Nope. Nothing fuckin' more.

-Kat