What I Need

"Let me know what you need from me."

A simple statement for most, yet one of the most complicated ever put to me.

1. Honestly, no one can really do anything about anything in my life. I don't ask or expect them to. It's my mess. A build up of so many mistakes I made in the past. I'm stuck. I'm trapped. And until other pieces give, there really isn't any room to move. I'll continue to work the edges and try to shift weights and location, but until then...I gots what I got.

2. I have no idea how to ask for anything. And right now...lol well what I want most isn't fuckin' possible and would only be an illusion anyways. I simply want to be held and for a moment not feel so alone. But I am alone. And I have no choice but to be strong and get through. LMAO...no one really wants to be here anyway.

*sigh* Slidin' down that dark fuckin' pit. Scrambling to grab a foothold and stop the descent. Shit. Shit. Shit. I just need a little something to hold onto.

-Kat