I've been blogging for 6 years. Well...five if you subtract the year I went into complete silence. I've met some fabulous people along the way. And I've managed to keep myself sane at times when there was no place else to turn.
For the most part, this is a very separate corner of my reality. Only a few overlap. The honesty I let myself have here is not something 99% of the people I know can cope with. Quite frankly, in our day to day lives we really don't want to know those around us. That much knowledge comes with responsibility. And let's face it, it's easier to be ignorant and careless. But I also dread being seen as a burden to those I care about.
The anonymity of my blog(s) tempers that responsibility tremendously. If your not a part of my life, there's not a lot of responsibility involved. If you don't know, there's little risk for either of us.
*sigh* Yes...I'm processing. Someone important to me asked for my blog address this afternoon. I didn't expect it. It had never been a point of interest. I couldn't help but feel some anxiety. This is where I don't force myself to hold back or be correct or spare feelings. This is a written vortex of me...where everything blends into chaos. This is my selfish, indulgent gift to myself. Where my voice can echo, whisper, crash, scream, ponder, and cry. I refuse to censor here. Not again. Not for anyone.
So...am I okay with throwing open this window?
Yes. The few that overlap have always honored and respected my trust. I know that will be repeated. But I am worried that it will be too much. LOL That is always my issue isn't it? Being too much.
But the truth is the truth. My craziness is my craziness. It's always your choice to read or ignore. So here we go...let's see what happens.
-Kat
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